Saturday Morning
Has been going great. Walked to the park and did tai chi for an hour. Then did a boot camp class in the park for another 45 minutes. Then walked fast for about an hour. What a feeling I have in my body - joyful, happy, and silly. Right now I am making lunch - baked salmon, broccoli, green salad, whole wheat bread, and blueberries for dessert.
The weight has been going up this week. Two pounds of gain. Consequently, the trainer measured me and said that I lost 2 pounds of lean body mass. Meaning that when I am losing weight, it is in muscles instead of fat. Meaning that I am becoming weaker and the weight loss is going in a wrong way. She said that there could be two reasons: not eating enough food or not enough protein and not exercising enough. I exercise 2 hours every day so it’s not that. One of my buddies advised me to eat more and I upped daily calorie intake. I will weigh again on Monday to see if the weight gain stopped.
Shanna posted a wonderful comment on my blog and everything she said was true. I do have a curvy figure and excellent health, according to doctors. I don’t want to starve myself and lose shiny hair, white teeth, and damage my skin. I think I was heading to a dangerous zone of starvation eating only 1300 calories a day and burning 600-800 calories only by exercising. My BMR that measures the amount of calories that a person needs to just maintain the body functioning lying in bed and not moving, is 1450 according to fitday. com. Simple math shows that my body, after burning 600 calories in exercise and 1450 calories just by breathing and living, was starved if I ate only 1300 calories a day. Hence the loss of muscles and then weight gain.
I am so confused sometimes. I don’t know when I am really hungry or if it is a familiar pull to binge, to stuff the belly with food, and to feel pain. I think because of yo yoing for so many years, my hunger locator is screwed up. I am afraid that losing 12 pounds in three weeks was a result of starvation rather than stopping binges.
So much to learn about the way my body functions. So much to learn about patience and frustration and nurturing, rather than punishing myself.
Thanks to Sarah, Dara, Debbie, and Tina, my buddies on the binge thread for support and sage advise.
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Hmm, so at this point you were losing muscle? I don’t want to do that. I wonder if I am restricting myself too. Been trying to stay under 1300 cals a day.
Good for on continuing to search the right way to go, and thanks for all your good advice, too. Hugs!
It is confusing sometimes. I think you are doing an amazing job. Exercing ALOT and eating very healthy. I hope to being the same thing. I am a newbie today. You are motivating a lot of people out there. Keep it up!!!
It can all be so confusing. I am a firm believer in eating a high protein diet to feed those muscles…I hope that helps you too.
How come loosing weight has to be so confusing? Not only do you have to retrain your way of thinking and then when you do your body changes and we have to change agian..Keep up the good work. I know you can do it. I have faith in you!!!!
Having the ability to get your body fat / lean muscle measured and tracked is a great tool. I’ve wondered many times when I’ve begun losing weight exactly what/where I was losing.
I think you may be onto something… whether your eating meter is screwed up because of the yo-yoing or because it’s just never worked very well, it may be worth considering regulating your eating via a regimented schedule. On my good days I wouldn’t need this, but on my bad days, could definitely use it.
By the way, you look dynamite.
Stay with your plan… eat right and exercise daily.
You are doing great Tatiana! Keeping our heads on straight is the first step and your doing just that! Let’s have another successful week…because we both know success isn’t measured only in pounds!!
Thanks for the great blog Tatiana. Really learning to listen to the body is tough and it is what I am going through right now. Little bit of binging so I am trying to smarten up. I have not felt right since my little episode of craziness. SO, here is me….Letting go in a positive way and RELAXING. I really hope my new doctor is good… I will meet her tomorrow.
Great points…. as always you leave me with things to think about.