moonbeam65

A very short post as I am busy at work and in school. Exercised 50 minutes before breakfast. I am full of energy and my emotional eating is tamed. It’s sunny and cold in Seattle and I am wearing orange and black clothes. Halloween.

Speaking of Halloween. Tom confessed to me that he has been secretly eating our Halloween candy and begged me to remove them from the sight. Interesting. I don’t eat milk chocolate and candy don’t bother me at all. The only chocolate I love is fine dark chocolate, 88% cocoa. My trigger foods are nuts and pizza.

I eat nonfat dairy products with every meal. Everything in moderation. I don’t want to go low fat or low carb. I don’t want to commit to any specific diet because I know I will fail and feel bad about it. Why should I create situations where I definitely would be imperfect and upset about lack of willpower? I will use my willpower to not succumb to any promising fast results and miracles diets. To stay away from anything drastic.

 OK, back to the rock pile,

Tatiana

Two days my dear buddies I did not exercise in the morning. First day I had a blinding migraine and in  addition I had to work 12 hours to complete some things by a specific deadline. OK, good enough excuse.

This morning I did not exercise… and I have no excuse for not exercising.  Then I checked my own blog from two days ago and read your comment Sharky. You did take my advice to heart and it worked for you. Now my dear buddy, I needed to read that with my own eyes. It was like you were responding to a different person who was committed to do what was right. And the person I was today had no awareness of that commitment. What a wakeup call!

You benefited from this info, it’s great. I, on the other hand, performed a ”mini-lobotomy” on the place in my brain where I stored this info. I spaced out, I got lazy, I forgot the joy of exercising in the morning.

Well, back on track… again. Another confession I am making here in the open. Yesterday I felt so angry at myself wobbling around that I took  my boot off. Tom wasn’t at home at the time. He did not see me. I was flying around the house, going up and downstairs in a record time. Oh, what a wonderful feeling. There was no pain. Am I healed? I hope I am.

When Tom got back home, he was really upset with me. He said that I was ruining my healing. He walked around the house carrying my boot and offering it to me. As much as I love my husband, I did not accept this particular offering. Later at night I talked to my friend Ellen and she joined forces with Tom. Thank you guys, but I am not in pain and I think that I can take it off.

Today I am not wearing my boot either. Guilty of that too.

Now about my eating. I added chicken to my diet. I eat soups. And I try to eat nonfat dairy products with almost every meal. It’s working. I don’t have evening binges.

Have a wonderful Thursday my dear friends,

Guilty but free at last Tatiana

I am keeping up with my resolution to exercise before breakfast for a week and monitor my appetite and overall feelings. Also with the team challenges that I posted on forum.

Exercised 45 minutes this morning. Did a lot of leg lifts and abs. Dumbells - 20 minutes. No cardio though. And I was starving at the end of my exercise. However, it feels so good to exercise early in the morning.

I also added nonfat dairy products to my meals. It SHOULD reduce my waist size. I hope. I miss summer fruits and berries. I talked to Ellen last night about adding hot, filling soups into my diet. It’s difficult to binge when I eat hot steaming soup. Bingeing requires eating giant amounts of food really fast. With soup you need to take your sweet time, especially if you use a teaspoon instead of tablespoon. I like Trader Joy’s vegetable soups. Red roasted pepper and tomato is my favorite.

Have a great Tuesday everyone,

Tatiana

I started this week with 40 minutes of exercise before breakfast. I am reading a book “How Rich Get Thin” written by an MD. She works with the richest people in New York who have no time to exercise or cook. It’s very interesting because I can incorporate the same tricks that she recommends to her clients and get the same results very cheap. She stated that if you exercise first thing in the morning, your body will burn 150% more calories if you were to exercise after breakfast. It also should fire up your metabolism for a day. So I did just that. I feel great. I am not sure if this is a placebo effect though…hehe.

So I did side leg lifts - 100 each leg, front lifts - 50 each leg, back lifts - 40 each leg. Situps - 50. Free weights (5 lbs) - 10 minutes. And I walked 1 mile. Yes, I think it’s really working. I wasn’t hungry when I had my breakfast and I wonder why. I am going to stick with exercising before breakfast for a week and monitor changes in my appetite and overall feeling.

 It’s a gorgeous, beautiful day in Seattle. Finally we have sun  and no rain. I may go for a walk during lunch time. I have one more week to go before I take off my boot.

 Have a great Monday everybody,

Tatiana

I will start with a giant whine. Ready?

Can’t walk. Walking in the boot stants my healing. Can’t do any variety of exercise to sustain a weight loss. Don’t weigh myself and just hopelessly watch my clothes getting tighter. It’s raining every day. Cold. Slippery. The house is full of boxes and I can’t unpack anything yet. Going downstairs is tiring and difficult. I have two more weeks until I take the boot off. Eternity!!!!

The whine is over. 

 I devised a plan. Everybody here seems big on plans lately. I am joining the crowd.  The plan is to go to a 24-hour fitness gym that has a pool and lots of great equipment and get three free session with a trainer. TODAY. I need professional help with designing an exercise routine that accomodates my boot.

 Actually, I feel much better after writing this down. At least it’s some action, not just whining and feeling bad for my poor self. I should be happy that my back, my arms, and head (checking with a great hope) are still okay. I can still move some limbs of mine safely. As long as I can move them, I will get exercise.

I am a little nervous going to the gym in the boot. The looks I might get wobbling between exercise machines. Leaving my designer boot by the pool… taking it off and putting it on in a locker room.  WTH, who cares.

Have a wonderful Friday everybody,

Tatiana

“I find it fascinating that most people plan their vacations with better care than they plan their lives. Perhaps that is because escape is easier than change.” Jim Rohn.

(Oh, this is so TRUE for me!!!! A healthnut on vacation and a busy/working/studying/never having enough time at home.)

“A mind that has been stretched will never return to its original dimension.”
- Albert Einstein  (what about a body?!!! Should be a different law, right?)

“Life does not have to be perfect to be wonderful.” - Annette Funicello (Note to self: remember that!!!)

“May those who love us, love us.
And those that don’t love us,
May God turn their hearts.
And if He doesn’t turn their hearts,
May He turn their ankles so we’ll know them by their limping.”

(I know now that somebody prayed to God to turn my ankle!!! I am limping, happy now? Please forgive me and turn my ankle back. Also, while you are at it, please turn my husband’s ankle back too. He is innocent, it was all my fault.)

“You’re getting old when you don’t care where your spouse goes, just as long as you don’t have to go along.” - Unknown (Tom and I are not old at all according to this quote.)

“Two rules for stress management:
Rule one: Don’t sweat the small stuff.
Rule two: It’s all small stuff.”
- Robert Elliot   (these are my rules too)

And finally my favorite of all times:

(With emotional eating I have to ask myself, “who do I feed now?”)

Let’s talk. The weight is still the same. However, I am feeling much better after doing an hour of free weights (5 lbs) and abs exercises on a stability ball last night. I have this pleasant sensation in my muscles, some kind of tiny vibration borderline on soreness… It feels really good. There are some positive changes going on in my body.

I am doing weight training three times a week. It will not replace walking and I still grieve over not being able to walk for miles and miles daily. Regardless, weight training is a workout and it does tone my muscles.

Having protein (chicken) for dinner around 6 PM last night completely erased my night hunger. This is another discovery on how badly my body needed protein. OK body, I am listening. I will need you, my beautiful strong body, for many, many years to come. I will take you skiing around Christmas and hiking in Arizona in spring. I will let you walk places, hike mountains, and swim oceans. I will stretch you and let your rest when you need to. I will feed you healthy foods and stop when you are full. I will listen. I promise not to abuse you with outrageous amount of exercise and binges.  When I first got you, 42 years ago, you were excellent, perfect, healthy, and joyful. I promise to keep you the same way. I love you my body.

Tatiana

Last night I was cruising my kitchen and stuffing myself with fruits and nuts… and I realized that I did not have enough protein in my diet that day. I craved chicken. Nothing could replace it. I feel so sick today after bingeing last night…

 Now here is a deal. My husband is a vegetarian. Out of respect for him I try not to eat meat when he is around. When we were dating, it was okay because we did not live together and I cooked meat regularly for myself. Now that we live together, I am missing out on the foods that are important for my body. I talked to him last night about bingeing and protein. He agreed that I should buy chicken and cook, only in separate pens and pots. It’s all a process of negotiating in a new marriage. Finances, food, friends, families, holidays, etc… everything! I now that he is an urban buddhist (yes, a new type of Western buddhist) and vegetarian due to strong convictions and still he wants to accomodate me. A few months ago I tried to go completely vegetarian and I felt murderous after a few days. I recovered by eating some grilled chicken breast. The world was saved.

Usually when I have one serving of chicken a  day, it is enough to hold me up for the entire day and I don’t feel deprived or starving, like my body craves something specific. I was talking to Jennifer about Ornish diet and how I could not stand it because of lack of protein and healthy fats in it. My friend Ellen swears by blood type diet. She is actually losing weight on it. I have the same blood type as hers and my “bloody” diet should consist of lots of protein, veggies, and fruits. Now my husband loves carbohydrates and is a huge cookie lover. He is a potato guy. He loves tosts with jam and butter. He loves yogurt, milk, etc… Everything that I should not eat according to “bloody” diet.  I will have to sit down with him and explain that I need to eat the way my body works the best.

I decided to stop weighing myself for a week.  It’s depressing to not being able to walk. We went to the opera on Sunday. I had to wear my boot instead of nice shoes.  It’s getting into me to go downstairs walking sideways holding onto the railing. In addition, Tom fell downstairs last night and hurt his right ankle!!!!! What is it, some right ankle karma in my family? I offered him my boot… he refused.

I am off to do free weights and leg lifts. At least it’s sunny right now but who knows for how long. Was I dreaming that I was in Hawaii a few weeks ago?

Tatiana

As you all know, I am “bootiful” and will remain in the boot for another two weeks. I still whining about dropping off the Thanksgiving Walking Challenge. However… I brought a stability ball and free weights from our basement to my living room. And yes, I still exercise. I discovered that I actually enjoy doing weights and abs on the stability ball. I still can use legs as long as I don’t put any weight on my right foot. I work out hard for about 40 minutes and do some stretching on a floor.

My arms are sore and my stomach is sore as well. Wow, I forgot about weights because I became so obsessed with the walking challenge! Lesson learned. Balance, I need some balance in my life, exercise routine, and eating.

I haven’t had any binges lately. I think I am so scared of gaining weight because I stopped walking that I am more conscious of food I eat. I haven’t weighed myself after that terrible weigh-in after Hawaii. The big weigh-in is coming on Tuesday. I wonder…

The pain in my right foot is going away. Having some rest is helping and the boot is helping apparently. What I noticed is a strange sensation in my legs. It’s like my muslces miss working out and started to shrink. Is it possible?

People at work and in school all make sad faces when they see my boot. I have to explain that I am not in pain currently and that I am simply aging, getting old, I have degenerative tendonitis! And some kind strangers let me go ahead thinking probably that I am an invalid. I appreciate everybody’s concern… but it irritates me to be treated as a sick person. And the first person who oh so wants to take care of me and irritates me the most is my husband! Granted, he just loves me…

I am nervous about the weigh-in. No walking, change in exercise, stress, etc… what is it going to be?

Tatiana

Thank you for all your kind comments my dear buddies. Tom called me “booteful” this morning. I guess I will hear these “bootie” comments all the time. But at least I have a real weapon handy if my husband bothers me too much. The boot is kind of heavy and scary looking.

This morning I got my free weights and my stability ball in the living room because it’s hard to go up and down stairs limping. The pain is still great. I can feel the the swollen part.  The pain  shoots up almost to my knee.  I so hope that it will go away. I miss my walking.

Matt, it’s scary to realize we have limitations… but like Shanna said, it’s great we still have all the limbs and the brain to plan exercising without further injuring ourselves.

Yes, I am planning on walking again as soon as the boot is off. But I am not sure I can immediately start doing 5 miles a day though.

Tatiana the booteful