Has been going great. Walked to the park and did tai chi for an hour. Then did a boot camp class in the park for another 45 minutes. Then walked fast for about an hour. What a feeling I have in my body - joyful, happy, and silly. Right now I am making lunch - baked salmon, broccoli, green salad, whole wheat bread, and blueberries for dessert.
The weight has been going up this week. Two pounds of gain. Consequently, the trainer measured me and said that I lost 2 pounds of lean body mass. Meaning that when I am losing weight, it is in muscles instead of fat. Meaning that I am becoming weaker and the weight loss is going in a wrong way. She said that there could be two reasons: not eating enough food or not enough protein and not exercising enough. I exercise 2 hours every day so it’s not that. One of my buddies advised me to eat more and I upped daily calorie intake. I will weigh again on Monday to see if the weight gain stopped.
Shanna posted a wonderful comment on my blog and everything she said was true. I do have a curvy figure and excellent health, according to doctors. I don’t want to starve myself and lose shiny hair, white teeth, and damage my skin. I think I was heading to a dangerous zone of starvation eating only 1300 calories a day and burning 600-800 calories only by exercising. My BMR that measures the amount of calories that a person needs to just maintain the body functioning lying in bed and not moving, is 1450 according to fitday. com. Simple math shows that my body, after burning 600 calories in exercise and 1450 calories just by breathing and living, was starved if I ate only 1300 calories a day. Hence the loss of muscles and then weight gain.
I am so confused sometimes. I don’t know when I am really hungry or if it is a familiar pull to binge, to stuff the belly with food, and to feel pain. I think because of yo yoing for so many years, my hunger locator is screwed up. I am afraid that losing 12 pounds in three weeks was a result of starvation rather than stopping binges.
So much to learn about the way my body functions. So much to learn about patience and frustration and nurturing, rather than punishing myself.
Thanks to Sarah, Dara, Debbie, and Tina, my buddies on the binge thread for support and sage advise.